My Sweet Angel |
By Marissa Simertz |
Dedicated to baby brother, Sean Patrick Lehn |
My sweet angel once so dear, now is gone so far from here
My sweet angel that I love, has gone to be an angel above My sweet angel that I miss, I wish I could have one more kiss My sweet angel that made me smile, I won’t see for quite awhile My sweet angel I bathed and I fed and I dressed, when he was alive we all felt so blessed My sweet angel that I adore, I cannot take care of anymore My sweet angel with eyes so blue, I held you in my arms and love you true My sweet angel was so curious; he made small things seem so mysterious My sweet angel squealed with joy as he played with his gym and his ducky, I felt so happy, so proud and so lucky My sweet angel with such handsome looks, loved to listen to me read him books My sweet angel with one dimple so charming and sweet, giggled and laughed when I played with his feet My sweet angel dancing with mom to Sheryl Crow, as a funny a sight as you’d ever know My sweet angel with so much hair, has left my heart broken, empty and bare My sweet angel with a face all aglow, did you even know how I loved you so? My sweet angel who I watched being born, I never would have thought I would soon have to mourn My sweet angel we slept curled together at night, with you next to me everything felt right My sweet angel who never said good-bye, I still don’t understand why you had to die My sweet angel who died of SIDS, why does this thing have to kill little kids? My sweet angel I dreamt we’d both one day be married, but at age twelve I had to watch you be buried My sweet angel took to heaven only his soul, but left my heart here with a big gaping hole My sweet angel who touched my life so, I don’t really know why you had to go My sweet angel you were so small and so new, and we still had so much left to do My sweet angel who seemed so tough, didn’t we watch you carefully enough? My sweet angel I’m sorry if I did anything wrong, but I pray for your help in keeping me strong My sweet angel it hurts so very much, to have a baby brother that I can no longer touch My sweet angel it’s not fair, it’s not fair, it’s not just, it’s not right don’t you see, I want you back now, I want you with me My sweet angel anger, sadness and fear are constant reminders that you were once here My sweet angel you miss all the holidays, yet we celebrate them for you at the cemetery anyways My sweet angel it’s sometimes hard to even say your name, everything’s now different and will never be the same My sweet angel even though you’re not here, your memories I hold oh so very dear My sweet angel can you hear me when I speak to you now? And are you being cared for in heaven somehow? My sweet angel why you left I’ll never be sure, But I do know I pray they’ll soon find a cure My sweet angel, Sean, I still love you so, I will never forget you, I just wanted you to know My sweet angel, as I look at the sky for your star, and whisper “Goodnight Moon”, I cannot help but let myself cry and wonder why did you have to become an angel so soon?” |
By Marissa Simertz, Age 13
Dedicated to baby brother, Sean Patrick Lehn, on his first birthday. July 30, 2003 – December 8, 2003 |